Thursday Thoughts: I'm Going Back

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I’m going back to Paris.

I used to have it figured out.

Now, not so much.

The woman who knew me best passed away on Friday, September 24th at 6:10 pm.

Happiness is a decision. You can’t get through life without a sense of humor. Forgive, forgive, forgive.

Her three rules forever imprinted in my mind.

Helen Cerna Dajer. My biggest cheerleader. The unconditional wind in my sails.

I spent the last few months in Puerto Rico with her.

She was as happy as ever.

Despite her declining health. Despite her past. Despite the sudden death of her brother at five years old. Despite her alcoholic father. Despite the stroke that left half her body paralyzed. She kept belly laughing.

She never went to college. Never had a career. Never made a “success” of herself.

But her whole family showed up on her last days.

Fifteen of us flew from around the world to be with her as she took her last breath.

That’s success.

She’s got me rethinking everything.

Not long ago, I wanted to be Richard Branson. But now I just want to laugh with the people I love.

There’s nothing left to prove. I did the thing. I built the businesses. I met my idols.

But that wasn’t it.

So I’m going back to my roots. My lease in LA is up. I’ve sold all my things. My life is packed in a Briggs & Riley suitcase.

I’ve got a one-way ticket.

I’m going back to my family. To my friends. To my home.

I’m going back to Paris.



Song: Paris by The 1975

Photo: 10 minutes to landing…